Thanksgiving In Spring

I'm in it right now. Editing, re-writes, updating websites, re-tooling the business plan, talking to investors. I've got my computer back and I feel like I'm back in the swing of things, ready to really hit Monster Cops as hard as I can. Finishing up this episode, prepping for the next one.

But as I'm in the middle of working. I need to stop for a minute. Really take stock of what it is I'm thankful for. I was without my computer for a week, and I felt so frustrated not having this very important tool in my moviemaking arsenal. Now that I have it back I realize how thankful I am for it, and remember a time when I was younger and had nothing but a desire to make movies, with no resources to help me get there.

As much as I like to complain about what I don't have (we all do it), it's important to really look and appreciate what you do have. I'm in such a better position now than I was years ago. Yes, I want the latest equipment to help make better quality stuff, but at least I've got the tools to make something decent now.

But I have to look beyond that. Before I jump back into the grind, and pump out as best an episode as I can, I have to look beyond the pursuit of my dreams, and really see what else I'm TRULY thankful for.

I'm thankful for my health, the fact that I'm breathing and I have all my limbs, and a functioning brain (sometimes). I'm thankful for a roof over my head, food on my table, and that I live in the land of the free, where, despite whatever supposed blocks I may encounter, I am absolutely free to pursue my dreams. I'm thankful for my amazing wife, Julianna. For the times we share, the adventures we have together, and the love that I have found with her. I'm thankful for such supportive friends, both online and off. There are people who believe in me so much and do things to support me, and I am ever grateful for them, and promise never to let them down and do what I can to return the favor. I'm thankful for my supportive, caring, and loving family. I'm thankful for my community, for my very existence, and the fact that I am blessed to witness so much greatness and beauty, and for the opportunity to use my talents to add my own creativity to that greatness.

I mean, why wait til Thanksgiving to take stock of what you are thankful for. I think it's important to stop for a minute, and appreciate what you have, appreciate that you're living, and appreciate the opportunities that are given to you. It's easy to look at what you don't have. It's easy to look at what more you could have. But life isn't about easy. It's about living and really experiencing the true nature of your own existence.

To do that, to really live, you don't need anything else but what you already have. Your heart, your mind, your soul, and the very breath in your lungs. With that, you can do anything.

I'm back

Got it all up and running, editing timeline is back up. Straight back to cutting footage I go.

I feel so naked

without my computer. Still using the wife's laptop. My desktop is still being worked on. I will hopefully get it back tomorrow and I can get back to some real work.

Must finish the next MC episode, as well as do some major updates to monstercops.com. I have intro videos to upload. And I have to get a DVD copy of this episode to New York by next week. If I don't get to, then I just wasn't meant to screen Monster Cops at the New York Television Festival. I swear I've been trying to get a video to them for the past 3 years. And it's not that I ever got rejected, something always seems to prevent me from even getting in a submission.

I have alot of confidence that this episode will be a better example of what Monster Cops is and could be. I just hope that you all receive it well.

On the fundraising front, a few interested parties, but nothing solid yet. I'm pretty sure everyone is waiting to see the newest episode first, and once I can get that done and out for people to see, we can probably get a bit more movement in getting the funds.

It's a bit harrowing right now, a little scary, and very adventurous. In the end I hope I get the chance to really show my stuff soon.

Hopefully the next time I blog it will be from my desktop.

This shit just got real

I didn't want it to happen, but we're going to have to go into overtime. Need to make a play soon, or something drastic will have to happen, and I'm going to have to call this whole thing off and head on home. Like for real.