Sunday, February 25, 2007

Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired

I guess I was jinxing things when last I posted about being sick.

I'm finally past my fever, cough, and cold. Just in time for some sort of stomach virus. I know it's mostly stress related. Induced by the current mood. Going to my second funeral in 5 months doesn't help. And still sinking back into sadened memories of the recent past. A local cop died, a friend of the family past away, and another commited suicide. And you never know when Juli will sink into that place where she does nothing but think about her mom. The only thing I can do is hold her. And somehow I feel like I'm not being a good enough husband, simply because I've been too sick to really hold her as tight as I want to. And I keep worrying about my Father and how my Mother is dealing with him. I also worry about Juli's Father and how he's dealing with recent tragedies. Can't help but let it all get to me sometimes.

So many details and tragedies and odd and eerie things to post about. But I'm too God Damned tired. Too tired of living though all this stuff to relive it in a blog. And I haven't even gotten to the part where I have to deal with the traditional stress that accompanies DIY Distribution. Such is the life of an indie movie maker. But honestly it could all be so much worse. Even with all the crap going on and going down, I can still look at the fact that I made a movie, and most importantly I've got Juli.

And it's not all Shitsville all the damned time either. We make plenty of time to laugh and remind ourselves of the more positive aspects of life. We're goofy people, so even after the crying and suffering, a stupid joke is somewhere around the corner to lighten the mood. If you're ever down and out, just sing "Dick in a Box" to yourself and your day gets brighter. The song is medicinal.

Gotta get off my ass pretty soon though. The DVD for The Midnight Special will be headed out on April 13th. Much marketing to do. Also must prepare for the ole wedding anniversary as well as Juli's Bday. Gotta get some gifts ready.

The Midnight Special will be screening at ALL-CON (sci-fi, fantasy, convention) in Addison, Texas, March 18th. Wish I could be there.

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