It's been a hard day. I haven't felt very well. I'm not sick. But I am upset.
Don't really want to elaborate, but much of it has to do with ignorance and racism, and possibly on a deeper level, I feel a little on the outside right now.
There was one time, when I was in Russia. I had left the hotel and gone for a walk. I got a little lost. Then I found myself completely overwhelmed. I didn't know where I was, nothing was familiar. The signs were in Russian, the people, the language on the streets, the cars, everything was completely different from what I was familiar. When you travel overseas you realize that you are visiting a foreign country, but when you're lost on the streets in a foreign country, you suddenly truly realize just what that means. You're not in a foreign country. You are the foreigner, and you truly begin to understand what it means to be a stranger in a strange land.
Eventually I found my way back to the Hotel. But I remember vividly that feeling of being completely surrounded by everything that is completely unfamiliar. I started to feel that way today. Mainly because of certain events, certain perspectives, and people not fully understanding that: 1) I'm not white, and 2) Not everyone shares the same opinion and or point of view.
I don't talk to anyone about religion or politics or anything controversial, and I'm ok with whatever POV you want to express. Everyone has their own and they are entitled to it. But if it is hateful, if it demeans me, and attacks me, then it's not something that I will tolerate. I don't care how casual you talk to me. Do you really think I'm going to just stand there and be ok with what you are saying?
It's been a hard day.