welcome to the wild west, I'm a gunslinger, and you're not.

You can bitch all you want about it, but it doesn't change the fact that you cannot often predict what the market is gonna be like. Every step is a risk, every move a gamble. I know you see the flaws in the system, and you call as you see it, and I commend you for it. Feel free to continue to fix whatever it is you think needs to be fixed, and I may very well be inclined to agree with you. But since it seems to be working out well for me, I won't complain.

I understand your point of view. I understand this is what you want to make a living at, fine. But just realize this particular brand of video work is new and flawed, two things that seem to go hand in hand sometimes. But despite the fact the flaws need to be fixed, the real kicker comes back to the fact that people change their minds. Companies, advertisers, sponsors, they all have the ability and capability to change their minds, even if they say the whole time they want something else. All the whining, and yes it is whining, is really due to the fact that you're looking for permanent employment and job security in a system that is only looking for hired guns to enter rogue unpredictable situations.

I recognize that I am a hired gun, and I may very well not make it out alive once the gun play is over. It's a risk everytime because there is no garuntee that you may create something that'll actually win you a prize. I know this wholeheartedly. So I create it, submit it, and try my best to forget about it. It would be a mistake to rely on it, to stake you're life on it, because in the end it's still a contest, and there has to be winners and losers. I know I may very well lose, but it's till worth it if you enjoy the process of creating it. And that's all I can do, make it, enjoy making it, and let it go. The rest is up to the powers that be.

Never Put All Your Eggs In One Basket - Or All Of Your Coins On One Game.

Shoot First Ask Questions Later

Started shooting last week. Here are a few freeze frames from what we've shot so far. Mostly interviews and dialogue scenes. More to come as I get the locations I need.


Cutter about to miss the trash can again.



Greenly being Greenly.



Weir talking about depression and toothpaste.



Windows and Jack talk about Cutter's gun jamming.



Windows offers Jack suckers he made himself.



Jack reacting to Windows telling her he keeps them in his pants.



Nigel and Bryce discuss smiley faces.



Bryce puts a smiley face on Nigel.



The consequence of putting a smiley face on Nigel.





Shooting continues throughout this month and possibly into May. If you are someone I talked to a while back and you expressed interest in helping, and you think you'd never hear from me ever again, be prepared, cuz I'm frickin calling everybody to help me get this done. Yes even YOU.

- Patrick

I always expect it. I always know it's going to happen. But I still get surprised at how frustrating making a movie is, even if it is just a 22 minute pilot. I think it is even more frustrating because it is 22 minutes. Somehow if it were 5, it would be fine. Or if it were a 90 minute feature, it would be fine. But 22 minutes is kicking my ass.

Not a big deal. Just using the ole blog to vent. In actuality(sp?), things are going rather smoothly. I just get more and more antsy every time we shoot something and I cut it together onto the timeline. Just 27 more scenes to shoot and we'll have enough to fill 22 minutes.

Everyone pray it doesn't rain on Wednesdays and Saturdays for the rest of the month.

Holy shit. I don't feel like doin a goddamn thing today.